The Wild Inspired

  Can’t believe this was taken over 4 years ago. At first, I looked at this photo & felt shame wash over me, as I compared it to my current body. Let me be clear…There’s nothing wrong with me currently. But changes can be scary. Aging as a woman and watching my body take shape in a curvier version of what I see here, terrifies me. But it’s also everything I’ve emotionally prepared for too. I get to love the woman I see on this screen, and also love the woman I see standing before me today. I get to understand that an extra 5-15 lbs isn’t lessening my worth.  I get to deeply understand that priorities and goals change with time. It used to be that I spent a lot of time “working” on my body to be perfect, meanwhile I was completely obsessed with weight and massively insecure and would indulge in ED behaviors, punishing myself etc. Physically everyone thought I looked healthy, but mentally my health was shit. My whole existence relied on how I perceived my appearance and my b...