Can’t believe this was taken over 4 years ago. At first, I looked at this photo & felt shame wash over me, as I compared it to my current body. Let me be clear…There’s nothing wrong with me currently. But changes can be scary. Aging as a woman and watching my body take shape in a curvier version of what I see here, terrifies me. But it’s also everything I’ve emotionally prepared for too. I get to love the woman I see on this screen, and also love the woman I see standing before me today. I get to understand that an extra 5-15 lbs isn’t lessening my worth. I get to deeply understand that priorities and goals change with time. It used to be that I spent a lot of time “working” on my body to be perfect, meanwhile I was completely obsessed with weight and massively insecure and would indulge in ED behaviors, punishing myself etc. Physically everyone thought I looked healthy, but mentally my health was shit. My whole existence relied on how I perceived my appearance and my body. I’m
So, I was quite the happy little camper yesterday when I was given the opportunity to style models for a photo shoot to be seen January 1st in The Village Connection (a Huntington, NY magazine). I must say….pretty cool shit. So, now its even more in my heart to do this for a living. And I will. Yes, yes. Moving on… I learned a few key life lessons and career lessons yesterday which I thought of sharing with you. #1: Photographers who have been in the business for 10, 20, 30+ years DONT GIVE A CRAP what you have to say and WILL tell you so if you over-step your boundaries . Well, anyone that knows me shouldnt be surprised that I over-stepped that boundary more times than once yesterday. I dont even blame him…I mean, imagine a photographer who has this girl who literally has never done a magazine shoot in her life, telling the models to push their hair back? Or that a pose should be different to show an outfit better? I MEAN REALLY ALAX WHAT WERE YOU THINKING?!? Now, thank God thi
Photo & Film By Sarah Elizabeth This time, last year, we were barely weeks into one of the most confusing situations. The world came to a crashing halt, and we were all in pretty much the same boat: holding our breath and waiting. March was extremely anxiety inducing. I couldn’t imagine what was about to happen in my business, let alone financially. I could barely pay my bills, even with a side job, along with whatever side photography work I could get. I was already struggling before this worldwide halt, now what? In April 2020, I decided for the last time to choose myself even in the unfortunate times we were faced with. My peace and fulfillment over all else, became the most important thing to me when faced with the stripped down version of life that was handed to us. I left my part time job, which was giving me a false sense of financial stability and security, but in reality was just holding me back from DOING the damn thing with my photography business. I remember leaving th
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